I planned today as a day of very little. Â It’s almost too easy to do, but I sort of knew that I wasn’t going to be productive today before I went to bed last night. Â The good news is, I don’t seem to have had a return of the deep dark depression that followed my Thanksgiving sojourn.
I caught up on some DVRed and on demand TV (those Real Housewives are not very nice to each other and the food on Top Chef still looks delicious), read some more of Dark Places (I foresee Gillian Flynn becoming a must read author for the duration), ate a lovely sushi lunch from Amber (thanks to a credit from delivery.com), and basically was a lazy sod. Â Like I said, almost too easy to do.
The tendency is to roll myself back up in my hermit cocoon and become a ball of couch potato until life intervenes and forces me again to interact with it. Â So, instead I’m going to fight against that and make sure I do stuff. Â Tomorrow, whining or no (and I’m certain there will be some), I intend to exercise. Â I also need to do grocery shopping, before the weekend. Â And the living room explosion needs to be contained. Â Also, apply for a few jobs. Â It’s not exciting, but it’s necessary to make a list and keep myself accountable. Â One foot in front of the other and all that shit.
I definitely count it as a plus that I’m not feeling depressed or anxious. Â I am feeling like I could lean back into the inertia and do nothing for a lot longer, so I’m pushing against it, fully aware of how difficult that sometimes becomes for me. Â But I’ve built some inertia into my plans for New Years (a low key, Downton Abbey marathon watching affair), just so I don’t feel too deprived. Â I know, my life is just party party party. Â Never a dull moment.
In the meantime, trying to get the workout argument over with in my head tonight (or at latest tomorrow morning), so I don’t waste too much time before I get off of my ass and just walk…