I’m using a Holidailies prompt today, which is, “What do you wish had happened in 2012, that didn’t?” Â It’s actually easier to think about the things I wish hadn’t happened in 2012, but I do try not to think about my life in terms of regrets or wishes for things that had or hadn’t happened.
I’m not a “everything happens for a reason” girl. Â I don’t think of Â my life in terms of fate or destiny, but you can’t really wish away the bad stuff, because it negates the good stuff that resulted too. Â I’ve always tried to look at all the things that have happened in my life as having led me to the next thing that comes along. Â Regretting things that have happened or wishing for things that haven’t is generally a futile exercise that leads to extreme dissatisfaction. Â And while certainly there are things that I’ve been through in my life that were unhappy or unpleasant or awful, they are also the things that have led to whatever came next, and without them lots of awesome stuff might never have happened either.
I won’t lie. Â I do wish that I hadn’t spent ten months unemployed and without much income. Â Or that I’d been able to stay more motivated and do more of the things the extra time could have allowed me to to do. Â I also wish that I hadn’t gained a bunch of weight this year. Â But, dwelling on it isn’t going to do me any good. Â So, while this year has been a difficult one, I’m hopeful that the next will be better and I’m working to make sure that’s the case. Â Exercising again for my physical (as well as mental) health. Â Applying for lots of jobs, trying to stay creative and motivated, and keeping an open mind. Â I hope there will be good things to come in 2013. Â And those things couldn’t happen without being where I am right now.
Most of all, right now though, I wish I had a cookie. Â Chocolate chip or peanut butter (or peanut butter chocolate chip)…